This December I decided to make my own calendars and cards using the portraits I have been painting over the last eight months or so. The whole process from mixing the paints to applying paint on the canvas to cleaning my brushes! had become a long awaiting and somewhat feared process that brought many things together and created openings. So, may each month of this New Year bring joy, health, love, peace, compassion, more conscious living, and a remembrance of what we once all knew as children:

“There is such a place as fairyland – but only children can find the way to it. And they do not know that it is fairyland until they have grown so old that they forget the way. One bitter day, when they seek it and cannot find it, they realize what they have lost; and that is the tragedy of life. On that day the gates of Eden are shut behind them and the age of gold is over. Henceforth they must dwell in the common light of common day. Only a few, who remain children at heart, can ever find that fair, lost path again; and blessed are they above mortals. They, and only they, can bring us tidings from that dear country where we once sojourned and from which we must evermore be exiles. The world calls them its singers and poets and artists and story-tellers; but they are just people who have never forgotten the way to fairyland.”  (From The Story Girl by L.M. Montgomery)

Books, winter themes and rodents

‘Fragmentation and breaking up is indeed the essence of the twentieth century’ Terry Tempest Williams

Over the month of December I have tended, especially while my son was young, to engage in reading winter and Christmas stories and creating handmade cards, wrapping paper, decorations, calendars, gifts. I also tried to integrate a flavor of this Christmassy activity in December’s lessons and school activity. In some sense the spirit of the festive season was spread out over the month and it gave all of us the opportunity to get creative, learn English carols and songs, and also, read favourite books from our shelf of Christmas and winter themes children’s books. As winter is finally setting in this year I have on some evenings found myself longing to get cozy with a children’s book and a hot beverage. So, last night I took Jill Barklem’s book: The Four Seasons of Brambley Hedge down from the shelf. In the Winter Story an Ice Hall is being constructed and a midwinter Snow Ball is being organised following the tradition of the forefathers of the field mice:

When the snows are lying deep   / When the field has gone to sleep / When the blackthorn turns to white / And frosty stars bejewel the night / When summer streams are turned to ice / A Snow Ball warms the heart of mice.  Read more

Midwinter and Christmassy themes (part one)

‘Once upon a time, when women were birds, there was the simple understanding that to sing at dawn and to sing at dusk was to heal the world through joy. The birds still remember what we have forgotten, that the world is meant to be celebrated’ (Terry Tempest Williams)

‘The Christ birth story is our story. The marginalised, the dispossessed, the homeless and the refugees, are at the heart of this tale’ (From Last Christmas, curated & introduced by Greg Wise & Emma Thompson)

As the festive season is approaching I have started reading Christmas related things and have engaged with an exercise to do with past midwinter traumas and losses and distracting mishaps so as to free the present from the burden of past events and to increase awareness of cyclical patterns and repetitive stories that have lived underground for too long.  In her book When Women Were Birds, Terry Tempest Williams writes ‘we are quiet because there is a history of abuse and harm committed toward those who tell the truth. Marriages are shattered. Families are broken. Judgments are rendered. The woman stands alone. Our stories live underground.’ Oftentimes articulating and naming experiences and the stories and lies that bring us to the truths moves us towards deeper acceptance and increased presence. In the previous post I referred to our agentic capacity at any given moment. One factor that can contribute positively to agency is presence, and even if desirable options may not be visible immediately, deeper presence connects us to a more resilient aspect of ourself. Each new realization and ability to stay with increases our capacity for clarity and presence.   Read more……….. Notes